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Date:2009-03-22 23:48
Subject:whigning for me
Mood: disappointed

So, um. .... Yeah. I haven't made a post in about four years. YEARS! Dang. Can't imagine anyone might read this, so I'm really just posting for me. Because I'm just feeling the need.

So I have this totally bitchy friend whom I guess isn't my friend anymore. You don't really think that things like this would happen at my age and yet there it is. ... I suppose I'm better off since she really did make me question myself in a way that I hadn't since high school. Not the good kind of Questioning My Place in the World and my Perspective About it, but the bad kind of "Am I a big dorky lame-o?" questioning. The problem, aside from the fact that I miss the good times we had, is that we shared almost all the same friends. And since she's so charismatic - and actually physically present (a state in which I have not often been since I started the job with the wonky hours) - it seems that I have lost all my friends.

... Maybe not *lost*. But it's been over two months since I've seen any of them. And considering it took some distinct effort to re-create a social life after Chris left a year and a half ago, it really blows extra goats.

Meanwhile I am loathe to try and find a different job - if I had typical hours I could probably get my social life back - because I've become friends with a good chunk of people at work. I'm all attached to them. Plus, I like the actual work. The hours suck and the commute is stupidly long and the pay is not what it should be... but I usually like the work. Except on those days when it's ridiculously busy and/or we've got obnoxious and/or dangerous people waiting. That's no fun. ...But it does often make for good stories. After about 12 years of working in the mental health field, I never got so many entertaining stories as I have since working in a psychiatric hospital. All my other years were generally working with kids & their families so I had stories - they were just all really depressing. "Hey, so there was this guy who was jerking it in the lobby while yelling 'Sweet Jesus come into my life!'" is way funnier than "Hey, so there was this mother who consciously allowed her daughter to be molested by several of her boyfriends!" Yep. Way funnier. (Also, both are true. For the record.)


Guess that's it for now. Sure do wish I could update this from work. I occasionally have downtime with nothing at all to do there so posting in my LJ would be cool. But I'm 99% sure I can't as the site is blocked. (Seriously. Almost everything is blocked at work. SO annoying!)

Maybe my next post will occur in less than 4 years from now.

We'll see.

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Date:2005-09-26 16:20
Mood: amused

Well now, gosh. It really has been an insanely long time since I last posted. Poor little LJ, sitting here all alone...

But I recently found this and felt the sudden desperate need to share. Because, funny! For Firefly/Serenity fans only.

But pretty much anyone can appreciate this. Unless you're a scientologist, in which case... What are you doing here? Shouldn't you be picketing some psychiatrist's office? (Yeah, okay, it's kinda old news. But still, funny!)

Maybe later I'll make a real post. Like about how I am lamely getting excited about some new TV shows (Threshold! Veronica Mars!) and re-discovering the world of really good comics (Astonishing X-Men! Astro City! Planetary!)


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Date:2005-01-01 17:44
Subject:Just a meme
Mood: blank

Eagle Daemon
Your EAGLE DAEMON represents an unlikely
combination of fierce pride and remarkable
wisdom. Though widely admired, you can be very
distant at times, and like to stay out of
people's personal lives.

What Animal Would Your Daemon Settle As?
brought to you by Quizilla

Meh. Half yes, half no. I don't know about the "admired" part, but I sure as hell don't like to stay out of others lives. I'm a seriously nosey chick.

...Hey! I haven't updated since Nov 3! Dang... I know I thought about posting various political thoughts, but then there was already plenty of that going on. Probably didn't need my two cents added.

And now it's New Years Day. I suppose I should say something about that. Except New Year's has never been much of a big deal to me. I don't do resolutions or anything. To me, it's just a day that's special only because a bunch of guys many many hundreds of years ago decided it should be the beginning of a calendar. Meh. Whatever. If I want to resolve to do something or become contemplative of my life, I don't feel the need to wait until New Years to do it.

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Date:2004-11-03 11:36
Mood: crushed

About half an hour ago, John Kerry called George W. Bush to concede the race.

I can't seem to stop crying.

How could this happen?


Just... Why?

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Date:2004-11-03 04:19
Mood: depressed

Looks like we lost Tom Daschel.


Could this night get much worse?

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Date:2004-11-03 01:55
Mood: aggravated

I just posted this in inga13's LJ, but I thought I'd post it in my own LJ.

It's bad for Kerry. Really bad. But it's not absolutely over. Even though several networks have projected Bush as the winner of Ohio, CNN has declared Ohio "green." As in "Too close to call." There is only about a 100,000 difference in Ohio and there are estimated to well over 300,000 votes left uncounted (as of 2:00 am Wednesday, Eastern Time) plus 100,000 to 250,000 Providional ballots that won't be counted for 11 days.


I also just learned that Iowa (7 electoral votes) can't provide its final vote count tonight because of severe mechanical failure of their electronic voting machines (raise your hand if your not in the least surprised about that) and "personel fatigue."

And in a Fuck You Ralph Nader moment, Iowa and Nevada both show that he may be causing a loss for Kerry in those states.

Aaaaaand all those kids who were supposed to turn out in huge numbers this year? They failed us. Apparently, there was essentially no increase in the number of people aged 18 - 24 who voted this year over last. Fucking kids.

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Date:2004-11-02 23:51
Subject:can't... take... the... stress
Mood: anxious

Well it's just after midnight after Election Day and my heart is starting to hurt.

Aside from the Presidential race still being too close to call in so many big states, I have learned the following crappy news:

1)My home state of Florida is looking very much like it will go to Bush. Close, but probably not close enough for a recount.

2)Every single state that had a proposed amendment to ban gay marriage has passed it.

3)Two of the biggest nutball Republican Senators running for re-election (can't remember their dumbass names unfortunately) have won their races. Fuck.


This night is not turning out well so far. At least Kerry has apparently taken Pennsylvania. Looks like it'll all come down to Ohio.

I keep thinking about the Washington Redskin's loss a couple days ago and how that is supposed to predict Bush's loss. (It's true! I checked Snopes - since the Redskins have been in Washington, 1936, the result of their final home game has predicted the Presidential race.)
But then I remember the huge streak break of the Boston Red Sox finally winning a game.

Who knows? Maybe it's the end of the world.

ETA: Those nutball Republican Senators I mentioned are Oklahoma: Tom Coburn and Jim Bunning in Kentucky

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Date:2004-10-26 18:01
Subject:Angel finale on TNT
Mood: distressed

Just re-watched the Angel series finale on TNT. Was the first time since its original airing in May that I could stand to watch it. Am now reminded of how extroadinarily pissed off at the WB I am for cancelling this show. And, to some degree, Joss for having such a total lack of closure for the characters.
Yeah, yeah, I get the message. Always did. "The fight is never ending," yadda yadda. I see the artistry of it. But that doesn't negate the fact that I, as did thousands of others, developed an emotional attachment to these characters, and not having any idea what happened to them is really quite painful.

Of course, the most excruciatingly painful - and beautiful moment was Wesley's death. My god that hurt. "Would you like me to lie to you now?" "Yes, please." Such a tragic character. Dammit.

A distant second tragic moment would have to be Lorne's final actions. Killing Lindsey in cold blood. So against his nature. I don't blame him for never wanting to see Angel again.

God damn. I'm still crying.

Fucking WB.

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Date:2004-10-23 04:34
Subject:A little meme-y thing
Mood: sleepy

stolen from dettiot

1. Tell me one thing you love about me.
2. Tell me two things you love about yourself.
3. Look through the comments... when you see someone you know, tell them three things you love about them.
4. Do this in your journal so I can tell you what I love about YOU.

In other news:

I just learned that there was a gay kiss (male even!) on Joan of Arcadia tonight. I'm gonna have to start watching that show...

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Date:2004-10-23 02:54
Subject:Liberal Links
Mood: accomplished

I have come across some truly great stuff that I just had to share.

Topic #1:
Did you know that Ann Coulter got hit by a pie? Actually, they missed, but still... I am having multiple simultaneous reactions to this news:

1. Ha! Hahahahahahaha!
2. Wishing I had been the one to do it.
3. Disappointment that they missed
4. Concern that this will be used as evidence by the right wing as evidence that we liberals are ass holes. Or at least immature.

Topic #2:

PIPA conducted a study and found that many Republicans believe dumbass ill-informed stuff, like WMDs were found in Iraq or that a connection was found between Iraq and the attacks on 9/11. See? While the RNC may be evil, apparently the Republican public is just stupid uninformed. Of course, much of this can be blamed on right-wing media outlets like Fox News and Rush Limbaugh.

Topic #3:

Also, there is this. ginmar posted it and, as she described it, is truly one of the funniest things I've seen recently. Damn good stuff.

Topic #4:

I thought I'd take this opportunity to link to Air America Radio's web site. It's the home of The Al Franken Show, to which I listen almost every day. It's both funny and informative. If you want to listen but there isn't an affiliate near you (yet), you can stream from this site. Franken is on from noon until 3pm. You can also download any episodes you miss here. I've listened to some of the other shows and find that I like Franken's the best. He comes across as less extreme than some of the others and is generally more entertaining. Plus, he always backs up what he says with facts and the resources to investigate those facts (like non-partisan Fact Check.org).

All righty then. That’s it for now. If I’ve offended anyone, well... I'm sorry but those are my very very strongly held beliefs. Plus, it’s my LJ, dangit!

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Date:2004-10-19 23:19
Subject:Nothing Special
Mood: awake

Just doing a quick test to see if I can successfully links to pics in the Yahoo Picture album I just discovered I have.

Picture of the iguana I saw at the zoo this weekend. Hopefully.Collapse )

Hope that works.

Okay, that didn't work. Here's a link from my new Photobucket account:

Let's try that again.Collapse )

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Date:2004-10-17 18:50
Subject:A horrifying discovery
Mood: shocked


Tim Minear, whom I love and whose talent I deeply respect, is a Republican. Worse, he gave money to George W. Bush.

My world has been rocked.

See, this is why I don't want to know about celebrities' personal lives.

In other news:

Chris and I went to the Central Florida Zoo today and had a lovely time. It was a gorgeous day, although still a tad on the warm side, and we saw many many cool animals. Zoos have really come a long way over the years. This one was pretty good, with fairly decent, naturalistic habitats for the animals. And I took an absolute ton of pictures. Yay, digital camera!

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Date:2004-10-17 00:17
Subject:I'm not dead yet! I think I'll go for a walk
Mood: accomplished

My God, what a whacky week.

First, Monday was the last class of my Career Counseling course, which of course meant that my procrastinating self had a shitload of work to do beforehand. Seriously. A shitload.

So then, I figure Tuesday will be a nice relaxing day to watch HBO. But first, I do a little web surfing. About half an hour into it, the computer freezes. This is not unusual, alas - it happens all the freaking time. I am convinced that there is spyware on the hard drive, but I have a Mac and so I can’t find a spyware-killer compatible with my OS. Anyhoo, so the thing freezes and I re-boot. But this time... this time the Disk First Aid program that scans the hard drive when it crashes tells me that it found a problem it can not fix. Oh. Crap.

Even worse, all my internet set-up preferences have disappeared and I can no longer get online. Again, I say, Oh.Crap.

So I try a variety of fixes, all to no avail. Even Conflict Catcher is acting wonky. Long story slightly less long, I come to the conclusion that my only hope is to re-initialize the hard drive. Say it with me: Oh crap.

Now mind you, I did not know if the re-init wold certainly work. But it was all I could do short of bringing it to some Computer-Fixer Guy who’d charge me more money than the thing is worth to fix it.

Anyhoo. Note: Reinitializing a hard disk takes about 10 second. Backing up your entire hard drive using mostly 100 MB Zip disks takes all day.

To sum up, the re-init worked (thank god) and everything is pretty much fine now. It took forever to get everything back the way I like it (there’s still some work to be done actually), but it’s all okay.

It was however, a big honking pain in the ass. For the record.


I have pictures of my kitty! My site is still being wanky about uploading files, so I got a free site, just to link pics from. It’ll do for now.

So here he is. His name is Tommy and I have fallen madly in love with him.

Pictures of my new kittyCollapse )

And while I’m updating, I might as well add a couple quizzes and a meme.

Am I scary?Collapse )

What color is my aura? (whatever)Collapse )

And a meme gacked from just about everybody...

What have I got that you haven’t got?Collapse )

And if you made it through all of that majorly long-ass post, Yay! YOu’re my new best friend. ;)

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Date:2004-10-09 16:07
Mood: accomplished

Oh look! Another one!

This one's gacked from rahaira

This one's a list of stuff that I may or may not have doneCollapse )

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Date:2004-10-09 14:22
Subject:gacked from whitebuddha
Mood: amused

One of those Little Things About Me quizzes. Hidden because I care.Collapse )

Oh, and YAY! I can finally update my LJ without causing my browser to crash!! WooHoo!!

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Date:2004-09-21 23:07
Mood: disappointed

John Kerry had a rally in Orlando tonight and I didn't find out about it until just now.


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Date:2004-09-19 00:01
Mood: excited

I have a new kitty!! Wheeee!!!

It's not the pretty little girl I posted a picture of a week or two ago. Chris and I really felt that girl needed to stay with her current owner. They obviously loved each other very much.

So I happened upon someone else who needed to find a home for a cat. Was planning on going to a No-Kill shelter again, but this just sort of popped up.

His name is Thomas. I am debating changing his name, but he's 2 1/2 years old and probably knows his name already. The woman who had him has two other cats and Thomas was the low cat on the totem poll. One of the other cats is a huge, 20-pound cat who loved to beat on him. She tried to get him to stop and gave it over a year and a half, but she said it was just getting worse. She couldn;t stand to see the poor kitty getting bullied like that so she decided to give him away.

We spent about two hours at their house and she eventually offered him to me. She said she had planned to talk to a bunch of different people before placing him, but she decided that we were real "pet people" and she knew he'd have a good home with us. :D

I am happy.

He's a beautiful cat. He's gray with a white belly, feet, and a diamond shape on his face. He's incredibly soft! I think he might be part Norwegian Forest Cat. That's what my sister's cat, Nadia, is and Thomas shares a lot of features with her. His build is quite husky and firm, the fur on his hind legs looks like little pants, and he has fur poking out from between his toes, just like Nadia's. Also, his facial features are kind of pointed, like Nadia's.

I'm impressed by how easily he seems to be adapting to his new home. I had planned to start him out in the bathroom and then slowly give him access to new rooms one at a time. But he was so eager to get out and explore, I wound up letting him. After about 15 to 20 minutes exploring the bathroom and the walk-in closet it connects to, Thomas managed to scamper out when I tried to bring in a bowl of water. So I said, what the heck, and let him explore.

So now he's explored the whole apartment (all 850 square feet of it), had some dinner, and spent lots of time grooming and rolling around of his back. He's spending most of the time within eye-shot of either me or Chris and frequently comes up to us, to check in and get some pets.

So far, he's an awesome cat. Wish us luck! :)

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Date:2004-09-17 16:22
Subject:Fun with Fascism
Mood: distressed

Blatantly stolen from whitebuddha:

Check this out for a discussion of 14 traits historic fascist govornments have shared.

Why bother? Because all of those traits should look disturbingly familiar.

The current state of the United States of America looks an awful lot like that list.

If this doesn't bring it all home and scare the crap out of you, I don't know what will.

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Date:2004-09-12 22:01
Subject:My love and hate for Star Wars
Mood: nostalgic

I just watched a documentary on A&E, Star Wars: Empire of Dreams and I'm now feeling an intense, curious sort of bittersweet nostalgia about it all.

How I loved Star Wars and why the new Prequels Suck AssCollapse )

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Date:2004-09-03 12:50
Subject:storms and kitties
Mood: anxious

Well the hurricane has been downgraded to a Category 3 and is predicted to be a tropical storm by the time it gets here in the Orlando area. Which is good news indeed. On the other hand, the storm is also huge and moving veeeery slooooowly. Which means we will get very wet. So we'll see how that works out. *sigh*

::shakes fist at the weather gods::


So I am looking to adopt a new kitty. I had planned on adopting a kitty from a No-Kill shelter. I visited several that I found via Petfinder. But I didn't adopt any yet and I have recently encountered someone who needs to give away his cat. If no one were to take her, I think he'd have to give her up to a shelter. I can have her for free, she is already spayed and had all of her shots and tests and is reportedly very healthy. Her name is Macco.

Here is a picture of the kitty.

Still, I feel kind of guilty about not adopting a cat from one of the shelters. They all need a home so badly and the people at the shelters very much want them to be adopted. But I really can't afford to have more than one cat. I tend to be allergic and while I can adjust to one cat, living with two may be just a bit too much on my system.

We plan to get together sometime after the storm so Chris and I can meet Macco. Hopefully, we'll all survive with minimal damage.

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